Friday, February 10, 2012

Five Minute Friday: Trust

It's Friday again. Woo hoo! Today I join The Gypsy Mama to write for five minutes on her weekly prompt. No editing or rewriting allowed. Click on the link to her site if you want to try it, too. The prompt this week is "Trust".


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How can we trust? Why do I trust? How do I know that God is good? In January we thought we were going to lose Roger. A great man and a pillar of the church. He's been sick for so long, some didn't want to hold him here. But then he started getting better. He showed signs of progress. I stopped thinking that he might die. I looked forward to seeing him on Sunday mornings again, though I knew it would be a while before he was out of the hospital. 


Yesterday, Roger passed away.


But I thought he was getting better. I thought You were doing a miracle! And what about his family? Why this pain? He was not an old man. I want to run sometimes. Stop believing. But that steady reassurance is there. I know God is real. And I know He loves us. It's been proven to me so many times I can't stop believing. Even when I don't like what I see. Even when I don't understand. I know without a doubt there is a reason and I'll "get it" one day. Just not today. 
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Sheesh! I didn't know all that was going to spill out! Talk about real (I know, that was last week). Tough stuff. And I'm certainly not done working through it. Pray with me--peace and comfort for Roger's family. And a very real sense of God's love for them. 


"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18


8 comments:

  1. Oh, I feel you, friend!!

    2 1/2 years ago for me, and it was my sister Heather, and I still KNOW that God is good and can be trusted...but I still ache for that healing that wasn't manifest here.

    I will pray for Roger's family, and for all who (like you) are hurting at his passing.
    Thanks for sharing so honestly on 5-Min. Friday.

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    1. Wow, your sister. That is tough, Sabrina. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement and your prayers.

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  2. feeling the weight of this with you, friend. The questions. the sorrow. Peace with you.

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    1. Thank you, Tara. Feeling that sorrow, mostly for his family, but also for myself.

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  3. Alison, this is so honest. I find myself REALLY putting my trust in God, especially since my father, who is my hero here on earth, was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer on 17 January. It was a shock to all of us, but believe it or not, even though we know this is happening, I have a peace inside of me because I know that God has a plan. I pray daily that if in the end the plan is something I do not like, that he gives me the strength to keep bitterness away from my heart. In the meantime we are focusing on the fact that dad is still here with us, and we are making time for everything! :) Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.

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    1. Maria, thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry your father (and your whole family) is going through this. I pray the peace you have continues and you make the most of the time you have left with him. We can hope and pray it's longer than you expect.

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  4. God knows we can't possibly understand His ways. They are so much higher than ours. But He gives us the grace to hold on until we see, even if we don't see on this earth. God is sovereign over every detail. Never forget that!

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    1. Yes, He is. Thank you for the reminder. And He does give us grace. I'm feeling a lot more peace today than I did on Friday. Seeing Roger's family grateful that he is home and at peace at last reminds me how he looked forward to this. Celebrating his life today with them.

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